What The Fuck Is Wrong With Me?

I’m a fuckin pussy! All this self loathing over being alone and 20 minutes ago I had the perfect opportunity to meet someone and I passed it up. I went to Starbucks after dinner to get some coffee and while I was waiting (which was a while by the way) I was sitting next to this hot girl who was checking me out and actually tried to make conversation with me and what did I do? I acted like I wasn’t interested and as soon as I got my coffee I took off! I can already tell that this is going to be on my mind for a while. What the fuck is wrong with me?